Secret #14

I can't eat apples but i can drink apple juice.
One bite of an apple and my face swells and my tongue gets itchy.

I sound like a dying parrot.

Thoughts:

- Woke up with a fever yesterday morning :( It's gone now but I'm coughing like crazy. eugh
- So, I'm finally watching Fight Club with Marcus and Sheila in 6 minutes.
- 3 more days. I don't know whether to be happy or sad.
- I'm a tad bit upset because I couldn't get my tattoo's with my sisters. I'll have to wait until my sister and I go to Kelowna. I'm really hoping i can get my piercing this Thursday though.
- My back hurts.
- FUCK! Certain things are stressing me out and certain people aren't making things better.
- This shit is actually fucking important.
- Sorry for all the fucks. >=[
- Wow, there's not a lot on my brain today.
- I'm a bad friend :( A reaallyy bad friend.
- I want jamba juice.


Update: FIGHT CLUB WAS THE SHIT

Mona the Vampire

Hi, my name is: Katherine
When I'm nervous: I hyperventilate
The last song I listened to was: More than words/Officially missing you.
By this time next year I'll be: still 17 and hopefully driving..
I have a hard time understanding: math.
This Morning: I woke up and walked to iHop
Last night I was talking to: Dominic and Jesselin.
A better name for me would be: I don't know. You choose!
On Monday night I'll be: At Jessica's
My heart: pretty okay :)

PART 1: YOU
Were you a planned baby? Personally, i don't think so.
Were you the first? Nope.
Were your parents married when you were born? Nope.
What is your birth date? 08 20

PART 2: THE FAMILY
Parents: married or divorced? Married
Are you an only child? No.
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? Youngest.
Do you have any pets? Yuki!

PART 3: YOUR PERSONALITY
Do you have low self esteem? I'm trying to get past that.
Do you get depressed about things easily? Certain things, yeah.
Are you happy right now? Yeah, could be happier though!

PART 4: APPEARANCE
Are you comfortable with the way you look? Oh yes
Describe your hair: Up in a high bun and no bangs. Just imagine how attractive i look. AAHAHA
Were you a strange child? I still am.

PART 5: RANDOM
Are you scared of growing up old and alone? I don't know..I'd have to think about that
Own any pets? Yes.
Do you have a license? No... :(
Ever been kicked out of a bar? I've never been to a bar.

PART 6: THE OUTDOORS
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? Depends on the weather.
Favorite season? Summer!
Do you like walking in the rain? Sometimes.
Do you like thunderstorms? Yes.
Ever peed outside? Yupp. I was six. Stfu.

PART 7: FOOD
Are you a vegetarian? No
Anything you absolutely could eat forever? Pizza, Greek Food, Chicken teriyaki.
What food makes you want to gag? Liver
What is your favorite dessert? Anyttthinggg :)

PART 8: RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE
When did you first start noticing the opposite sex: 6 years old
Do you want to get married? give me 8-10 years.
Are you or have you ever been in love? I don't know. Part of me thinks yes but it was a long time ago. I'm waiting patiently to fall in love again.
Do you believe your first love never dies? I believe it lingers.

Dear Rei Ruiz,

I read your blog that was dedicated to me just YESTERDAY even though it was written the day after i moved to Cali. Thanks for making me cry =P haha but in all seriousness, I really didn't know that my moving would affect you so much. You're such a cool dude and i thought maybe since you had Sheila and other amazing friends, losing me wouldn't be so bad. Gahh, please know that you are and always will be the closest guy friend to me. I'm glad you and I got close last summer and talked about wizard crack, shak attack, In the night garden, and other interesting and weird ass fucking things. I'm so sorry that we lost contact for a while when i moved but i swear on my life i did miss you. I still miss you! And please, don't think that there's a replacement in Cali for you, BECAUSE THERE ISN'T. I'm not trying to look for one either even if you're in Canada and i'm in Cali. You're basically my brother :) I know you got my back and i got yours too. Also, thank you for all your help and support. I've told you basically everything about me and not once have you judged or criticized me for any of it. You always just tried to help me in the situation. hella good friend right there.
oh my dear brother, i love you so :) We're probably gonna talk about this on msn later tonight. Damn, i sound like such a cheeseball but it comes from the heart :) alrighty, i think i'm finished. now TALK TO ME ON MSN.

much love,
your little sister (who has done some freaky deaky stuff but i think you and sheila beat me ;] muahahaha)
I ruined it with that last one didn't i? It's okay. Bye for now.

Sheila's so cool.

not really.

Pondering

So, I'm here at Rei's house with Sheila. I feel kinda weird seeing that both of my 2 best friends are on the bed doing God knows what and i'm on the computer waiting to record a few songs with Rei. I'm listening to my iPod to drown out the noises. AAHAHAHAH. I just wanted to say how much of a 3rd wheel i feel. I shouldnt be the one talking though. Blahahahahaha anyway, I'll update later.

p.s Transformers tonight. 'nuff said.

Sister Bonding Time.

Tina: I'll give you a prize if you get this right. What is a mule and what is significant about it?
Emily: It's a person that doesn't talk
Tina: what?
Emily: Shit, that's a mute
Tina: AAAHAHAHAHAHA
Kc: ..AAHAHAHA OH WAIT I GET IT. Isn't a mule like a baby animal?
Emily: No, it's a painting isn't it?
Kc: Dumbass, that's a mural.
Tina: Holy fuck, i must be adopted.

ONE TIMEEEE.

hii.
So, today was quite fun. I went to my old schoool, hugged a few people, ignored others, and finally met up with Sheila, Rei, Marcus, Adrienne, Lilian, and SSSaaaam. We were all supposed to eat at a japanese restaurant but by the time me and Sheila came out of the petstore, the rest of our friends were gone. We assumed that they tried to hide from us or walked around because the line was too long. Soooo, me and Sheila just ate at the food court when they were actually already in the restaurant sitting and waiting for us. Lame. Theeen we watched Year One. Not gonna lie, that shit was funny. Michael Cera was as always amazingly funny. Swear to god he's just one of those people that don't even try to be humorous, but they end up making you laugh like crazy. After that, we went to Sheila's house to just kick it. Took some pictures and got squished on the bed by 4 people. It was great. When they all left, me and Sheila had some bonding time and talked about interesting topics....Now i'm back at the hotel, bored as fuck when i could have gone to a party, but Sheila's mother was mad at her and wouldn't let her go. Okay, i won't guilt trip her. Promised my friends we'd get fucked up another time anyway =] I'm going to go shower now. Byeeee.

p.s Getting inked this sunday with the sisters. Surprisingly with my parents permission. =] Yay.

I'm taking a nap after this.

Thoughts:

- "i just cant get over how much you've grown on me and how ridiculously amazingly, cute, and warm hearted that you are. there are really times when i just sit quiet because you are too cute for words to even try to explain on the personality that is YOU. " in the words of Adrian Romero. =] thank you friend.
-Damn, i gotta tell you the truth before things go too far. I'm afraid to tell you because i don't wanna lose you as a friend, despite the fact that you've crossed the line with me one too many times.
- I love you Stacey Wang, get better soon my love. If I were back in Cali, i'd visit you everyday until you were fully recovered.
- I know this sounds extremely horrible, but I'm dreading Canada. It's not exactly where i want to be right now.
- Hopefully, when i see my family and friends I'll be happier.
- Brother getting married this Saturdaaaayy, super excited for that =]
- Jesselin Narte is the sex, and i miss her so much. Along with the rest of the boys. <3
- I can't believe i'm missing the seniors grad today. Bad friend, kc. Bad friend.
- I can't stop thinking about that feeling i had when i was with him. Going to Candada wasn't how i wanted to start things off =[ I miss him.
- I'm thinking about the worst possible scenario right now, shit. I just gotta trust.
- I have a horrible sleeping pattern right now.
- I think i'm going to go to the Spa with Sheila. Hopefully, i won't giggle and laugh from being tickled.

It burned too hot to survive

1. last beverage - water
2. last phone call - Ralph
3. last text message - Charles
4. last song you listened to - Bottom of the Ocean
5. last time you cried? Before my nap

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice? Nope
7. been cheated on? Nope
8. kissed someone and regretted it? Yupp
9. lost someone special? I don't know if i lost him completely
10. been depressed? Yupp
11. been drunk and threw up? Never thrown up

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Pink
13. Black
14. Green

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends? Yessir
16. Fallen out of love? Wasn't in love in the first place.
17. Laughed until you cried? Yes.
18. Met someone who changed you? Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were? Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you? Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? hahah all the time.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? Probably 95% of them
23. How many kids do you want to have? 8. But in reality i'll probbaly only have 3 or 4
24. Do you have any pets? My dog, Yuki.
25. Do you want to change your name? No.
26. What did you do for your last birthday? Dinner with friends then kick it at my house.
27. What time did you wake up today? 7:25
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? Dreading.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? Canada.
30. Last time you saw your father? A minute ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Nothing.Everything happens for a reason.
32. What are you listening to right now? Bottom of the Ocean
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Nigga, that's my best friends name in Canada.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? School and boy. The usual.
35. Most visited webpage? facebook
36. Whats your real name? Katherine
37. Nicknames - Kc, Kace, Kcdc.
38. Birthstone - That light green one.
39. Zodiac sign - Leo
40. Male or female or transgendered- female.
41. Elementary School? St. Mikes.
42. Middle School? nope
43. High school? STM/IHS
44. Hair color - Black.
45. Long or short - Middle.
46. Height - 4'11 BIITCCH.
47. Do you have a crush on someone- gtfo.
48: What do you like about yourself? My big eyes.
49. Piercings - All on ears.
50. Tattoos - Where words fail, music speaks.
51. Righty or lefty - Lefty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery? Teeth
53. First piercing? Ears
54. First best friend? Thomas
55. First sport you joined? aahahahahah.
56. First vacation - LA
57. First concert- Aaron Carter. He acknowledged me too ;)
58. First crush - Aaron Carter. But i fell in love with his older brother after a few months.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating - Cupcake
60. Drinking - Orange Juice
61. I'm about to - Study for engorish
62. Listening to - Bottom of the Ocean
63. Waiting on - him

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? Yes
65. Get married? Yes
66. Careers in mind? Only one option. Famous music artist.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? Both
68. Hugs or kisses? Both
69. Shorter or taller? Both
70. Older or Younger? Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous? Both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms? Don't care
73. Sensitive or loud? Both
74. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? Both.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? No.
77. Drank hard liquor? Yes.
78. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes.
79. Sex on first date? No.
80. Broken someone's heart? Yes. Which is why i can't hold down a boyfriend. Fucking karma.
81. Had your own heart broken? Yupp.
82. Been arrested? Nope.
83. Turned someone down? Yupp.
84. Cried when someone died? Yes.
85. Liked a friend that is a guy? Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself? Only sometimes.
87. Miracles? I guess.
88. Love at first sight? No.
89. Heaven? Yes.
90. Santa Clause? Yes.
91. Kiss on the first date? Yes.
92. Angels? Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes.
94. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Nope.
95. Did you sing today? all day everyday.
96. Any regrets? Yes.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? Friday.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it,what would it be? Too many to choose from.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? No.It'd be a big adventure. I'm just afraid of getting hurt in the end.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? No. Fuck that!

Before The Storm

I know this isn't what I wanted,
I never thought it come this far,
Just thinking back to where we started,
And how we lost all that we are.

We were young and times were easy.
But I could see it's not the same.
I'm standing here but you don't see me,
I'd give it all for that to change.
But I don't want to lose her,
Don't wanna let her go.

Chorus:
Standin' out in the rain,
Need to know if it's over,
'Cuz I will leave you alone.

I'm flooded with all this pain,
Knowing I'll never hold her

Like I did
Before the storm

Verse 2:
With every strike of lightning,
Comes a memory that lasts.
And not a word is left unspoken,
As the thunder starts to crash.
Maybe I
Should give up.

Chorus:
Standin' out in the rain,
Need to know if it's over,
'Cuz I will leave you alone.

I'm flooded with all this pain,
Knowing I'll never hold her

Like I did
Before the storm

Bridge:
Trying to keep
The lights from going out
And the clouds from ripping out my broken heart.
They always say,
That a heart is not a home
Without the one who gets you through the storm.

Chorus:
Standin' out in the rain,
Knowin' that it's really over.
Please don't leave me alone.

I'm flooded with all this pain,
Knowing I'll never hold ya,
Like I did,
Before the storm.

Like I did
Before the storm.

Silly boy.

Thoughts:

- I'm letting myself down easy before you do.
- I apologize in advance to my friends for acting stubborn.
- Canada in 2 days. 'Nuff said.
- When I get there, i will do anything possible to forget everything that's happened.
- Rook piercing? I think so.
- I should be studying for my Eng and Math final but i'm so lost in my other thoughts.
- Shit, I sound so depressed.
- Happy thoughts kc
- Let's put a smile on that face :)
- gah, i just want it to be Wednesday.
- You're always there for me and also super cute. So, why did I choose to go the other direction? I'm so blind.

BREAK TIME.

01. Eyeliner or Mascara?
Mascara.

02. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Bourke?
LV.

03. American Eagle or Hollister?
Hollister

04. Pumps or flats?
Flats.

05. Skirts or pants?
Pants.

06. Socks or leggings?
Socks.

07. Hoodies or jackets?
Hoodies.

08. Heels or sneakers?
Sneakers.

09. Straight or curly hair?
Both.

10. Hoop or dangling earrings?
Studs.

11. Do you think your pretty, honestly?
Just cute.

12.Boots or Flip Flops?
Both.

13. White or black?
Grey.

14. Victoria’s Secret or Bath and Body Works?
Victoria's Secret.

15. Smoothies or Lattes?
Omg, fuck.. both!

16. Diet or regular sodas?
I don't like soda.

17. Water or daiquiris?
Water.

18. Pearls or diamonds?
Both.

19. Lemonade or iced tea?
Lemonade.

20. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?
MK.

21. Will you get drunk when you celebrate your birthday of this question number?
Heeeeelll yes.

22. iPod or cell phone?
iPhone.

23. Friends or family?
Both!

24. Lip gloss or lip stick?
Chapstick.

25. Manicure or pedicures?
None. I fuckem up all the time.

26. Would you rather shop with one best friend or go bowling with lots of friends?
Bowling.

27. Tank tops or beaters?
Tank Top.

28. Tiffany’s or Chanel?
Chanel.

29. Love or Peace?
Both.

30. Sunglasses or purses?
Both.

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IN A GUY...(OR A GIRL)!!!!

Funny or Serious?
Both.

Romantic or Daredevil?
Both.

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
A little of both, I don't know.

Long Hair or Short Hair?
Both.

Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
I don't care.

Basketball Player or Football Player?
Both.

Smoker or Non-smoker?
Both.

Drunk or Sober?
Sober.

Druggie or Clean?
Clean.

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
Any form of valid transportation is acceptable.

Player or Loyal?
Deinitely loyal.

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Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
Yup.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Laugh at him.

If you ever want to live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine, would you do it?
No.

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
No, I'd be a little bitch and start crying until i die. Which is probably the opposite of what I should really do.

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friend?
It's been a long ass fucking time.

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
Yeah.

On average what do you think you cry about the most?
My own worries.

Who was the last guy you talked to?
Charles.

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
Yes and no.

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
Yes.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I hope so.

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Guy and Bryana.

What friend do you tell things to the most?
Marcus, but i haven't had a decent conversation with him in a long time. Partially my fault.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Charles and Taylor.

Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
Bushes, probably.

Are you going anywhere next summer?
Canada.

Are you waiting for anyone's call or text right now?
Yupp.

Are you shy?
Yes

Are you talkative?
Yes.

Do you secretly like someone?
It's not a secret.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
No.

How is life going for you right now?
Shiteous.

Do you trust people easily?
Yupp.

Do you give out second chances easily?
Yes.

Do you smile a lot?
I do.

One thing you're looking forward to?
Next weekend, the summer, canada.

How do you feel about change?
It depends on the type of change.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yessir.

Last time you got a text message and smiled?
Saturday.

Are you happy?
I wish i were happier.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
No.

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
It depends on which people.

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
If I had my cellphone, ipod, a GPS Navigator, some water and a knife.

Mmm, leftover pizza!

Thoughts:

- A week left of school. 'Nuff said.
- Beach! Beach! Beach! Soon, please.
- I'm thinking of just dying my hair back to my natural color.
- I have to chew with the roof of my mouth and my tongue because I just got my braces tightened. hahahahah
- I need to do my laundry!
- I'm falling harder and harder for you. Is that bad? I just like how you're one of the very few guys who doesn't feed me bullshit.
- I need to be more gosh darn patient. Having lack of patience is what causes me to stress out!
- There are times when I wish i could just turn off my shyness. hahahahahah.
- Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? Definitely
- Someone take me to Ihop or Cheesecake Factory. Please.
- This pizza is not satisfying my taste buds.
- I'm going to finish cleaning my room.


p.s Look, my dog's asleep. Fatty.

Just wanna be your girl.

Hello World.
Woke up about half an hour ago =] Yesterday was a roller coaster of emotions. At the end of the day i guess you could say i was realllyy happy. I went to Great America with a bunch of kids from my school and that was cool. I got to perform! i'm not gonna lie, i did pretty amazing. I'm probably gonna post the performance up on youtube so watch out for that. After that, i went on a lot of rides, ate a lot of food, and got really wet ;) ...FROM RAPIDS, SILLY! Yeah it was nasty, i thought i smelt really bad from the water after but i apparently didn't. There are some things i can't exactly include in the blog because theyre hellla personal and it fucked me up bad :( but i learned something from it and it definitely helped me realized what..or who i really wanted. My dilemma is now resolved. =] So, aaannyway. The boys and jesselin decided that they wanted to go to my house the same night so i had to clean my room. I tried my best but i only had a half an hour to do it. It's funny how i saw them the day before but i already missed them so much. You have no idea how much respect and love i have for the fambam =] We did the usual, talk, watch a movie, eat, go out on an adventure (even though i was actually inside trying to sleep). They ended up leaving my house around 2:30am. Fell asleep around 3:00 and YEAH =] Sorry i couldn't explain everything but they're secrets. Shhhhhh! For some reason, after everything that happened, i feel hella confident but still kinda nervous and shy. Does that make any sense? Probably not, but WHATEVER. I'm gonna go eat the left over pizza from last night. Byeee.

p.s i woke up very happily today. Thanks. hahah