It's kind of sinking in now that after next month I will be done high school forever. I'm reminiscing a lot lately; thinking about last year, the year before it, the year before that and perhaps even the year before that. It's weird, you start off being a little runt in the beginning of high school. In my case, with hair that was the same color as my face, then with spikey-'emo' hair, then bleach blond lady gaga hair, and the horrible eye makeup that made me look, well, like a little hoe. My ideals were completely different. I wanted to grow up too fast. I experimented with lifestyle choices much too many years in advance for my naive little thirteen year old self; I was a piece of shit. Then slowly, throughout the next few years, I found my spark. I went through a lot of ups and a lot of downs, lost, gained, witnessed sickness, health, infatuation, love, lust, betrayal, drama, boredom. I met specific people who I'll never forget and some that I'd pay money to forget, all while maintaining a specific Monday - Friday routine within the walls of a high school where I never really felt like I fit in, completely.
Though, I hate to say it, but a part of me wishes I would've given high school the chance it deserved when I still had time to enjoy it. Oh well, I guess it's better in the end that I'm better now, as opposed to being a good younger teen and a shitty, destructive older one.
I can't believe it's over soon! In September it'll start all over again. I'll feel like a small fish in a big pond with new people, new choices, new ideas, new life lessons, new mentalities and a new start.
p.s I haven't been this positive in a really long time. I like it.
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