I Have No Internet

AND IT FUCKING SUCKS.
SORRY :)
blog soon

I Miss The Sister Bears

(no idea why this one is on its side)

I Want So Badly

to have the courage to actually confront you. Buuuuuut i can't. All my anger can easily be turned around with a kiss or a simple "i love you".I hate that. I completely lose my ground and fall for you even harder. There's clearly something wrong with me if i can't speak up to the person i love. I can tell anyone my problem, except for the person involved in it. Ughh. I'm afraid that if I tell you, you might think I'm trying to change you. Truth is, that's exactly what I'm trying to do. But i don't think you'd understand that I'm doing it for the better...

A Lot Like Love

I had a good weekend, but this week is going by dreadfully slow. I just want winter break to be here! I like new people, new things, good vibes. I like being over the past and being stoked on the future. I like plans, coffee and music. I like being happy and free. I like kissing and cuddling and feeling warm. I like that Christmas is in less than two weeks; the idea of ugly Christmas sweater parties and New Years parties, presents, and Christmas movies. Some of my family from Canada is coming to visit and it's going to be splendid. Boyfriend's spending a few days with me in my new house. I'm excited. Life is good. I feel sexy and confident. I want a passionate New Years kiss though! (hint hint Dominic)





p.s. Oh! And i got new glasses that make me look hot plus the female lead in Aida. Got the fucking reaaadddd on that one! I'm the shit. Admit it. JOKES >=]

30 Days

by Never Shout Never

30 days of Christmas and all I know
Is I'm not quite ready to let go of this past year
I have so much to show

One more month
And all I need is a sign from you that you think of me
If you don't
Then please just say so
Cause all I do
Is think of you

(Chorus)
And it's wearing me out
It's wearing me down
This holiday is nothing but frowns for me
But I've got a gift
You see
I'm making a list
Hell I'll check it twice
Of all the things you've done in my life
Then I'll send it your way
So you see why I love you

Who would have thought that someone like me
Could of fall in love so easily.
I know that you know that i know what i want
I know I cant have it but give it a thought.
I know that it sounds crazy baby
but all I do is think of you.

(Chorus)
And it's wearing me out
It's wearing me down
This holiday is nothing but frowns for me
But I've got a gift
You see
I'm making a list
Hell I'll check it twice
Of all the things you've done in my life
Then I'll send it your way
So you see why I love everything you throw my way

I know it's hard to say
But it's a crying shame that I came all this way
With so much to say
But all that came out was “Happy Holiday”
A home cooked meal and a nice warm bed
Somebody to love
A place to lay my head
But I got 30 days and I'm gonna make ‘em count
Cause I cant call it Christmas without someone to smile about

12/13/09

Thoughts:



- My eyes are swollen from all the crying i've done this past weekend, but i can honestly say that it was worth it.
- I still haven't tied all the loose ends, i'm still a hot mess, and i still don't know what's number one on my priority list. But for some reason, i feel a lot better now that i've talked about my teenage issues.
- I wish I had the courage to tell you how i REALLY feel about certain things. I don't know what i'm afraid of. Maybe that you'll leave?
- So, my parents aren't perfect. But I've realized that they eventually come around. I love how I have a better understanding with them now.
- Aida auditions are taking forever. The anxiety is killing me.
- I want this week to go by as fast as possible.
- Don't have a lot of thoughts, i'll probably update with a long rant tomorrow.



Goodnight <3