02/28/10

Thoughts

- I feel like I have a lot to do. I don't really, I just haven't started so it feels more overwhelming than it is.
- Online prom dress shopping = Exciting
- I miss my sisters and brother! I need family time ASAP
- I keep wanting to dress like it's Spring / Summer. The sun is deceiving. It looks warm and beautiful until I step outside and realize that it's not as hot as i think it is.
- Getting my ass back in gear at school.
- RAAWR, I wish I didn't procrastinate so much.
- I really like how happy I am lately.
- I'm pretty sure Vancouver is going to feel a wave of post-Olympic depression come next week.
- I've realized that no matter what, you're never going to please everyone. Someone's always going to judge you whether you like it or not. Someone's always going to be jealous of you. You're always going to be jealous of someone else. I've realized that it doesn't matter how fortunate one is in life (financially and materialistically speaking), work fuels everything. All you gotta do is try your best to find common ground. And if you can't, life goes on.
- I've had my fair share of lying, cheating, dumping someone, and being dumped. It's nice to know that I'm passed that nonsense.
- I hope you had a good day.

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I want to go sit in the sun. I want to feel the ocean breeze in my hair. I want tattoos. I want to get a job. I want to drink ice tea. I want CLU to love me and accept me (that is of course after I audition). I want to be successful. I want bronzed skin. I want to get my permit. I want to be covered in flowered dresses everyday. I want new boots. I want chunky, pretty jewelry. I want to become a better artist, a better person. I want to eat and live healthier. I want to go to a concert. I want to make a trip somewhere nostalgic.

Secret #23

The hardest things to say are the things that mean the most.

temporarily unavailable

I'll be M.I.A for the next few weeks. March is going to be a pain in my ass, so expect less blogging from me.

Quote Of The Day

"Don't make them a priority if you only remain their option."

HAHAHAHAHAHAH

Dear Canada,

I'm homesick. There has never been a time where I wanted to go home this bad. I miss the polite people, the friends, the family, the nice malls, the weather, and just the good times in general. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret moving to California. I love it here, and for all I know I've grown both literally and figuratively :) I've learned so much ever since I moved and it's been an adventure. But I just feel like I took you for granted for 16 years of my life. Maybe this is a way for me to fall back in love with you. Maybe next time I visit I'll take full advantage of how wonderful a place you are <3

The accuracy is amazing.

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Name: Katherine
Date: 2/12/2010
Colorgenics Number: 45721063

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You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what ? this is a part of your character and charm.

You want what you want and you need all that you want and, as they say in the movies, you are the sort of individual that 'By hook or by crook' you will, by fair means or foul, endeavour to get what you are looking for.

You are very demanding - and insisting on total involvement but you do not reciprocate with the same depth of feeling. However, it could well be that maybe an unprecedented surprise is awaiting you in the near future. For just as one whilst paddling in the sea, could flounder into a whirlpool, so you may be drawn into a loving situation that has high emotional demands - and you could well respond with a depth of emotion that you never even dreamed that you possessed.

There is considerable amount of stress present in your life at this time and this is perhaps due to some considerable mental and physical frustration. There are various physical needs that are necessary for your well-being but whatever the reasons - mostly of your own making - your needs are not being fulfilled. We wonder why? You are under the impression that nobody seems to care for you. This predicament is most uncomfortable and it is because of this that you are experiencing far more stress than you feel you can cope with. You need to find a soul mate - someone who truly understands you and whose standards are as high as your own. As matters stand you would like to break away from the vicious cycle that you find yourself entrapped but this is easier said than done. You refuse to compromise with your opinions and essentially you are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of the necessary decision. You are stubborn but this should be no deterrent experiencing a happy life.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.

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<3 <3 <3

Dear _______

1. I miss you. You were one of the coolest and most down to earth chicks i knew in Canada. You helped me every single time I had a self-esteem problem and you still continue to do so. I know for a fact your AMAZING artistic talents will get you far in life. Keeep doing what you're doing and i hope you go to school in San Francisco like you said you would. hahaha.

2. Nevermind. fuck you.

3. YOU! You are most definitely the bestest friend I've ever had. Literally the one and only person I can be my complete self to. I got your back, you got mine, and i hope it stays that way. If i hadn't met you, I'd probably be dead right now. No lie. Please be my maid of honor at my wedding. K thanks mayo ;)

4. What the fuck have you become?! I'm glad I went out with the old you and not the Ed Hardy wearing, fist-pumping douchebag that you are now. Hahahaha, get your long shaggy hair back and put on some REAL fashionable clothes. Maybe then i wouldn't stop laughing every time i creeped your facebook.

5. We were super close and now you don't even say hi to me on msn. You're always "busy" and never reply. I'm starting to think you hate me :(

6. I love and respect what you do, but you need to realize how much of an LG you are. You're 18 and I swear you act like me when i was 15. The only time you talk to me is when you have bitchy high school girl drama. Reality check, you're not in high school anymore. Yeah, I'm happy you got your life together, I'm happy that you and your boyfriend are still going strong (even though i think he's a heartless douche), and I'm happy everything is just perfect for you. But I can't wait til the real world hits you because you won't think everything's sooo perfect then.

7. Get the fuck over yourself. Your act only works on an audience mmkay? Stop believing that i am SOOO in love with you. Please, I only talk to you because you get butt hurt if i don't. I've completely given up on trying to be a real friend because you aren't putting any effort either. Oh, and you're only half the man my boyfriend is. So don't talk shit, thanks.

02/07/2010

Thoughts:

- From now on, independence is key.
- At this point, I'm so down to go to Monterey with my friends for the long weekend. My one chance to get away from everything and hang out with people i like.
- But i probably won't be able to go.
- Instead, i can just go dress shopping for prom with my mama in LA. I know it's early, but I'm excited.
- My eyes are puffy and I haven't taken a shower. I'm so attractive.
- I hate girls. We're so emotional and we're bitches. This is why i don't have many girl friends.
- I especially hate girls who ask for way too much sympathy or advice, but they don't listen to a word you say and become all emo and even MORE bitchy. Shit, like, what the fuck do you want me to say? Suck it up and get over it.
- Church today with mom and i don't mind it. Even though I don't believe in God.
- I surprisingly like Sundays because it's the day i get to stay at home and do the things i need to do. I like being by myself for a change.
- I feel like we're on an elevator. Enough said.

Why Am I Here?!

I'm at school and I didn't know I could go on blogger dot com until now!
I think I've just found something to do for the next 4 months during advisory.