Negative Nancy

I'm frustrated with how angry I've been the past two days. I woke up Monday morning and was in a sluggish mood. I've had a total of 9 hours of sleep in the last two nights. I tried caffeine pills to keep me awake during the day. End result: awake as fuck but nauseous at the same time. I recommend that you don't take more than two a day like I did. To top it off, schools a bitch. If i don't get on top of things fast, I'm going to have a bitch fit every single day and completely tire myself out. My body totally died on me today and it was definitely not a good feeling. ughh, I'm angry at myself because I have the capability to propel hatred very easily. And when I do, I feel guilty. I feel like I'm getting an ulcer or something -_-
Anyways, I'm not even sad, or depressed. I'm content, just really spiteful and angry.

Hopefully next week will be a good, packed week full of optimism and good planning. I blame myself for being so stressed out now. I was too laid back and chill on winter break and never created a plan for stupid school and other upcoming events. I guess, for now, all i need to do is focus more on important things that are vital for my future and bear with the rest. I can't fix everything at once. Ha! Look at me, I'm so dramatic.Goosh, when am I gonna hit my groove and actually look forward to the next day?

On a lighter note :) I'm fucking stoked for Aida rehearsals. Starting next week, I'll be busting my ass off! Sure, I'll lose my social life for three months. But from what I remember, I was happy with where I was and how many people I got close with.