Sunday, January 31, 2010

I secretly have a crush on country music.

Giddy On Up

V
erse 1

Baby, where've you been?
It's half past ten.
Oh, look you're late again.
Busy day, got a lot on your mind?
You should hear about mine.
A tall drink of water and a pretty little thing
were kissing on corner in the pouring rain.
Turned my head to get a better view
How in lord, help me it was you.

Chorus
Didn't love me
I ain't no fool
Didn't love me
No, no, no, no.
Love, love you let me down
Making this too easy
Love, Love you let me down
Think you should be leaving
Love, love you let me down
Let me down
No you wont string me along
You better be moving on
Giddy on up
Giddy on out


Talking:
(Oh I ain't finished sit back down.)

Verse 2
Been acting pretty strange, didn't want to talk.
Mmm, there's a pep in your walk
Smiling a lot when you look at your phone
Theres a change in your tone.
Ive been through your pockets and smelled your shirts
I don't wear bath and body works
Should've seen the signs you were sneakin around
She must be the number on the napkin i found

Chorus
Didn't love me
I ain't no fool
Didn't love me
No, no, no, no.
Love, love you let me down
Making this too easy
Love, Love you let me down
Think you should be leaving
Love, love you let me down
Let me down
Ooh you wont string me along
You better be moving on
Giddy on up
Giddy on out

Verse 3
Oh let me tell you
I guess you could say that I was blind
I was blinded by my love
I did everything for you
And now push has come to shove
So lets call the spade to spade
Was it worth the price you paid?
Now I am done, I'm the lucky one
And you can sleep in the bed you made.

Chorus
Didn't love me
I ain't no fool
Didn't love me
No, no, no, no.
Love, love you let me down
Making this too easy
Love, Love you let me down
Think you should be leaving
Love, love you let me down
Let me down
Ooh you wont string me along

Love, love you let me down
Making this too easy
Love, Love you let me down
Think you should be leaving
Love, love you let me down
Let me down
Ooh you wont string me along
You better be moving on
Giddy on up
Giddy on out

And won't you think I'm pretty when I'm standing top the bright lit city.

Today started boring, but got better throughout the day. I had practice from 9-6 (fuck my life) and then saw the boyfriend. I got to see some of his family too. I missed his parents. We got cupcakes and left for my home. When in Rome was surprisingly good. Super hilarious too! I realized that Josh Duhamel is a giant. A very sexy giant. Now I'm home in bed and my eyes are closing on me. Overall, pretty decent day. Tomorrow, I may go to church, or I might find something else to do.






p.s Fuck, i hate not having a single dollar in my wallet. It's depressing. K goodnight world.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Secret #22

I hate liars. Once you lie to me you lose my trust. It doesn't matter what you say, what you do, how you put it. You still lied.

Yeah, I'm bilingual

I speak bitch too.


Sunday, January 24, 2010

01/24/10

Thoughts:

- I think I'm over the stomach flu.
- Sadly, I wish I weren't so i wouldn't have to go to school tomorrow.
- PINK DS PINK DS PINK DS. I love my Lucas.
- I wish I were smarter. But then again I wouldn't be KCCCC!
- I gotta stop being such a creep!
- I want my nails done and my eyebrows waxed.
- You need stop stop trying to make your life a soap opera. You gossip and lie more than I do and you're a boy.
- Time to study for finals!
- I need some cash. I need a job!
- UTIs are a pain in my vagina. I suggest you never ever get one.
- Following in Kim Kardashian's footsteps is great. I LOVE HER.
- I'm trying REALLY hard not to complain too much. I just miss being giddy and excited to wake up in the morning and all.

Are you kidding?!

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
I'm still with him :)

Burger King or Wendy's?
BURGER KING. Wendy's makes me sick.

Where are you right now?
Mama and Papa's room.

Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris?
Ooooh, PARIS!

In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
Hoodies.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
No.

How long can you go without your mobile phone?
6 hours.

Do you have anything of your exes?
Yeah, they're alll mine now >=]

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Naww.

Apple bottom jeans or Hollister gift card?
Hollister, please.

What is/was your school mascot?
I'm gonna go with my old school. STMC KNIGHTTSSS!

At what age do you want to be married?
No specific age. Just when I'm ready.

Where is your mom right now?
Beside me.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
WARM!

Have you been kissed by someone who's name starts with a L?
No...

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yeaaah.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a M?
Yeeeaah.

What are you doing this summer?
Don't know yet.

Have you ever felt replaced?
Mos def

What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"?
Kitty!

Are you a jealous person?
Hahaha, yeah

how often do you drink energy drinks?
Not that often.

Who's your last missed call from?
My asshole sister <3

Are you wearing a ring?
Naww.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Yeeah.

Did a boy or a girl text you last?
Yeah, BUT HE DIDN'T CALL.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
o____O Come to think of it, no.

Do you drink enough water?
No :(

Is it easy for you to accept loss?
No :(

How do you feel when someone kisses you on your forehead?
Safe

Honestly, are things going the way you planned?
No

Could you ever be friends with the person who hurt you most in life?
I've done that many times.

Have you held hands with somebody in the past week?
Yeeeeeeah.

Have you dated the person you texted last?
I have not. If i were lesbian, i would.

Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?
Last three days? No.

Ever had your heart broken?
Stupid question.

Are you happier today or three months ago?
Hmm, I don't know.

Will you be up before 7 AM tomorrow?
If i decide to go to schoool.

What were you doing at 8am this morning?
Throwing up.

Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like?
Definitely nottt!

Have you ever slept in the same bed with the last person you kissed?
Yes.

Do you like anyone who's name starts with a A?
Allyyyy!

How bout a K?
Meee?

When is your birthday?
08/20

Is this year the best year of your life?
It sucks fuck so far.

Are you smiling?
No.

Have you ever kissed anyone whos name started with a J?
Uhmm, no.

What is irritating you now?
Everything.

Have you ever been camping?
Yesss.

Do you have any friends who are famous?
No.

What do you want?
No school

Do you like anyone?
Love

Can you play the piano?
Yeah. But not well

Do you ever throw up?
I did like 10 times this weekend.

Do you pee in public?
In public bathrooms

Taco Bell or McDonald's?
Euuugghh. Neither

Last thing you said?
Thank you.

What is the closest item near you that is black?
Remote.

Do your friends ever tell you to stop taking surveys?
No. I'm pretty sure some people think that though.

Who are you currently texting?
No one

Are you happy with where you are?
Fuuuuck no.

How many people do you currently "like"?
I like eveeryoneee :) I love one.

Who's the last person to piss you off? Are you still mad at them?
Damn, no one's pissed me off in the past few days.

Who was the last person to make fun of you?
Probably my dad.

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
hahahahah.

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
Yeah, but some of them don't make an effort to find the good.

If there were no letters on the keys on your keyboard could you still type?
Yeah.

In the past week have you cried?
Yeah.

Your mood?
Tired.

If you could change one thing this year about your life, would you?
I'd change something from last year.

Would you rather dye your hair or go tanning?
Tanninggg! Not like fake n bake though. I mean lying on the beach under the sun reading my cosmo magazines.

Are you giving up on someone?
If they're gonna be an asshole again, yeah.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

**

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt

I sneak into his cars cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

Sunday, January 10, 2010

you likey?

Tug Of War

You seem too good
Too good to be true
You're holding me stronger
Stronger than I'm used to

Don't go out
With the boys tonight
I won't sleep a wink
Wondering what you're doing
Don't go out
With the girls tonight
I will turn to drink
Wondering who you're screwing

You seem too good
Too good to be true
I'm loving you longer
Longer that I'm used to

Don't go out
With the boys tonight
I won't sleep a wink
Wondering what you're doing
Don't go out
With the girls tonight
I will turn to drink
Wondering who you're screwing

Tug of war
Sweet as sin
I let go
I fell in
Feel the pull
Call your name
I'm alone
Once again

Tug of war
Sweet as sin
I let go
I fell in
Feel the pull
Call your name
I'm alone
Once again

You seem too
You seem too good
Too good to be true
You're holding me stronger
Stronger than I'm used to

Don't go out
With the boys tonight
I won't sleep a wink
Wondering what you're doing
Don't go out
With the girls tonight
I will turn to drink
Wondering who you're screwing

Tug of war
Sweet as sin
I let go
I fell in
Feel the pull
Call your name
I'm alone
Once again

Saturday, January 9, 2010

01/09/10

Thoughts:

- BedRock is a sexy ass song.
- I miss him. I need a hot date with my hot boyfriend very soon!
- Gah, Sundays are the worst! I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. It consists of cleaning my room, doing my homework, and practicing piano.
- Where's the fun in that?
- I really wish I were around to see my niece grow up. It's weird seeing her after almost a year and finding out that she can talk in full sentences. gahh, she makes me happy :)
- After spending a whole day with Gabby, I know mos def that I want hella kids when i get older. just not now because I'm too self-centered, hahaha. If I have a kid I want to be able to give him/her my all.
- I have a craving for an omelette.
- All in all, it was a good day.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Negative Nancy

I'm frustrated with how angry I've been the past two days. I woke up Monday morning and was in a sluggish mood. I've had a total of 9 hours of sleep in the last two nights. I tried caffeine pills to keep me awake during the day. End result: awake as fuck but nauseous at the same time. I recommend that you don't take more than two a day like I did. To top it off, schools a bitch. If i don't get on top of things fast, I'm going to have a bitch fit every single day and completely tire myself out. My body totally died on me today and it was definitely not a good feeling. ughh, I'm angry at myself because I have the capability to propel hatred very easily. And when I do, I feel guilty. I feel like I'm getting an ulcer or something -_-
Anyways, I'm not even sad, or depressed. I'm content, just really spiteful and angry.

Hopefully next week will be a good, packed week full of optimism and good planning. I blame myself for being so stressed out now. I was too laid back and chill on winter break and never created a plan for stupid school and other upcoming events. I guess, for now, all i need to do is focus more on important things that are vital for my future and bear with the rest. I can't fix everything at once. Ha! Look at me, I'm so dramatic.Goosh, when am I gonna hit my groove and actually look forward to the next day?

On a lighter note :) I'm fucking stoked for Aida rehearsals. Starting next week, I'll be busting my ass off! Sure, I'll lose my social life for three months. But from what I remember, I was happy with where I was and how many people I got close with.

Story of my life.

Secret #21

Considering an ultimatum..

Saturday, January 2, 2010

I screamed 'why are you so far away?' She said, 'won't you ever know that I'm in love with you? yeah, I'm in love with you.'

1. Do you know how to use bobby pins?
I do indeed.

2. Do you hate a friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend?
Well, there are probably a few I'm not 100% fond of.

3. What is your favorite movie?
Stand By Me.

5. Do most people like you?
Yeah, I'd say so. The rest probably super hate me.

8. What does your hair look like at the moment?
It looks shitty. It's not straightened or anything and it's kind of greasy and up in a bun.

9. What did you say last?
"Ehhhh." It was a sick and tired moan, more or less.

10. Are you mad right now?
Nope.

11. What are you listening to?
The television.

12. Who is your favorite person?
I don't have one favorite person.

15. Do you love your dad?
I absolutely adore my daddy!

16. Do you have any pets?
I do, one dog named Yuki.

17. What did you do today?
I woke up, ran to Dominic's room, slid under his blanket and let him wake up with his arms around me.

21. Do you have a printer?
There's one downstairs, but there isn't one hooked up to my computer.

22. Do you have a crush on anyone?
My boyfriend.

23. Do you know anyone famous?
I know myself. ;) Lol, no. I do not know anyone famous.

25. Dogs or cats?
Dogs and cats!

27. Do you prefer short or long hair on the opposite sex?
Don't care.

28. Favorite color?
Gray + Hot Pink.

30. Where is your phone?
On my left.

31. Who do you trust the most?
Fam and friends.

32. Where was your default picture taken?
My Room.

33. What’s your middle name?
Not Applicable

34. Your current relationship status
Taken.

35. Does your crush like you back?
Well, he is my boyfriend, so he must have a crush on me.

36. What is your current mood?
Bored.

37. What color shirt are you wearing
Blue.

38. Are you feeling romantic or frisky?
Not right now. If my boyfriend was here, I'd probably be feeling both. But he's not.

39. If you were with your crush right now, what would you do?
We'd be lying on the ground, cuddling and watching television. Mm, ah I miss him!

40. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Nope!

41. where was the last place out of town that you went to?
I don't know.

42. Ever had a near death experience?
Indeed, i did.

43. Something you do a lot?
Talk. Facebook.

45. Who can/do you tell anything to?
Mom, Sheila, Dominic.

46. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Maddy

47. when was the last time you cried?
Uhhhm, last Tuesday!

48. Where are you right now?
In my family room.

49. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Psychic! Like That's So Raven!

50. What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Style and sexiness. Yeeahh, Dominic has both of those.

51. Who is your favorite celebrity train wreck?
Amy Winehouse is pretty fucking amazing.

52. What is a saying that you believe?
"Everything happens for a reason!"

53. Favorite color(s)?
See Question 28.

54. What is one thing that annoys you on T.V?
Pointless reality television. Jersey Shore is pretty fucking hilarious though.

55. Do you still like kiddie movies?
No, not really.

56. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
I'm drinking water. I'm not eating anything at the moment.

57. Do you speak any other language?
Nope, not really. I can speak bits of Filipino and curse, but not enough to get me around. I've learned French, but it wasn't really my thing.I can count to six in Spanish and say yes and no.

58. Favorite Smell?
Vanilla, lemon, clean laundry and my boyfriend.

59. describe your life in one word?
Interesting.

60. Have any tattoos?
I do.

61. What are you looking forward to the most?
Nothing -_- school is starting again. FUCK.

62. What are you thinking about right now?
How much I miss my boyfriend and how fucking lame it is that school is starting up again this Monday.

63. what should you be doing right now?
Nothing. Gtfo.

64. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
Meh, don't remember.

65. What are you listening to?
Friends on television.

66. Do you like working in the yard?
Nope.

67. What color are your nails?
They're the normal color of nails.

68. Do you act differently around the person you like?
No, I'm more myself around him than any boy I've ever liked.

69. What is your natural hair color?
Dark Brown.

70. Why did you cry the last time you did?
Doesn't matter anymore :)

I'm never settling for anything less than electricity in my veins.

My New Years Resolutions for 2010

- Find a job.

- Get my permit.
- Try to do a good deed everyday.
- Try my best to "kick" at least one of my bad habits.
- Talk less shit / less gossiping.
- Be less picky.
- Be more proactive.
- Be a better friend / girlfriend / daughter / grand-daughter / sister.
- Graduate High School.
- Avoid arguments / be a better listener / more understanding.
- Eat healthier / exercise more frequently.
- Learn from all mistakes / no pining / less negative / less complaining / live days to their fullest.