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Life is for deep kisses,
strange adventures,
midnight swims and
rambling conversations.


p.s I want summer

Dear parents,

Hey, here's a fucking thought. You have a seventeen year old daughter who's had self-esteem issues her whole life and has worked her ass off for years to the point she's at. All she really wants is the same things as everyone else: good friends, a supportive family and a lovely boyfriend. You know that a lot of her "ruttish" behavior starts when those simple aspects get imbalanced. YET, you have nothing but NEGATIVE comments to say to her. I've been TRYING so HARD to make myself a more positive, happy person. CAN'T YOU JUST FUCKING ACKNOWLEDGE THIS?! How about fucking throwing a compliment my way once in a while instead of making me feel like shit? That'd be fucking remarkable. Oh, and stop beating around the bush because it just makes you sound even more like a DUMBASS.I'm sick of this shit. Fuck you. YOU guys are the reason why I have no back bone. I've depended on you guys so much that I can't think for MYSELF. I just want to be happy, but when I'm around you two I want to SHOOT MYSELF. Do me a favor and back off. I love you guys, but you two are constantly getting on my case for the stupidest reasons.

Thanks.

Quote Of The Day

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

FUCKING CUTE

Quote Of The Day

"the problem with people is that they wear their lives struggles on their sleeves, as if that defines them as a person. But if you've truly been hurt, you don't talk about that shit"

In all honesty,

is it really that hard to have ONE day without any problems?

You could be somethin' different, maybe.

someone make a time machine with me :)

04/9/10

Thoughts:

- Before I begin, my next blog will be all on my New York trip.
- Broadway is my calling.
- I want to go on a date with my boyfriend. It's been a while.
- I'm in desperate need of beach time with some friends. I'm really hoping the plan for tomorrow is still a go.
- No one cooks better than my grandmother. I repeat, no one.
- I can't believe how fast this year is already going. Only one more month and I get to feel like a princess at prom.
- I am soo ready to graduate. High school? Yeah, not my thing.
- I'm uber lazy today, I guess I should use that to my advantage. I have a pile of homework I should do.
- Dear sun, please don't go away. I like you. It is definitely time to go tanning and I need you around for that.
- Today, I felt really relieved. I was worrying about a lot this week, and I took the high road and sorted it all out. Having balance restored in a life is a very uplifting thing.
- I don't feel safe at night unless I have a human over the phone or a dog in my bed.
- Boyfriend > Booty Call. Just saying. I don't respect girls who oppose to that.
- As I get older, time goes faster. In three months, I will have my high school diploma. Wtf.
- I love my new hair cut. The nasty shit-brown is gone and it is tangle-free.
- I'm allergic to something. I keep breaking out in itchy, hot, gross hives! The plague has hit me again!
- My dreams are filled with strange ideas lately (ie. gnomes in drinks killing people with fevers.)
- I fucking love baking.

you likey? me likey.

My new celebrity crush

I would kill to do a photo shoot like that.

I think i have borderline personality disorder

This week has been shit. It was pissing rain on and off and then i got sick. I had a fever yesterday and my throat feels swollen every time i swallow. I guess my body decided to give up on me because it knows Aida is over. Speaking of Aida, because of the withdrawal I've gone through, I'm pretty sure I'm going through some rebound depression. God, I wish I could go back in time and relive those moments. I have a really hard time letting go of things. The experience was by far the best, and I know for a fact I will never be as connected to a character as I was with Aida. Now it's back to my boring, stressful life and I have no excuse to get out of classes anymore. fuck lifeee.

Hmm, I guess the only thing I'm looking forward to is NEW YORK! Leaving tonight, babyyyy! I need this break from reality. I will blog all about it when i get back. Now it's time to shower and pack.

p.s I'm watching Halloween and its fucking amazing. Just saying.