Canada,Canada, Canada

That's all I've been thinking about today. I just wanna go home...

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If we're both not married by twenty-two
Could I be so bold and ask you?
If we're both not married by twenty-three
Will you make my year, and ask me?

If we're both not married by twenty-four
Will you pass me those knee pads and I'll get on the floor
If we're both not married by twenty-five
I hope that there's some childish spark still alive

Cos there are so many lessons
That I just never get to learn
And there are so many questions that still burn, like

Will you hold my hand when I go?
Will you hold my hand when I go?
Will you hold my hand when I go?
Will you hold my hand when I go?

If I get to thirty and I don't have a wife
I'll ask you nicely but I won't ask twice
If I get to forty and I don't have a spouse
I'll fashion you a letter and I'll send it to your house

If I get to sixty will you let me slip away
Into an armchair for the rest of my days
Cos you've got your family and I've got mine
The love that we share is for another time

Cos there are so many lessons
That I just never get to learn
And there are so many questions that still burn, like

Will you hold my hand when I go?
Will you hold my hand when I go?
Will you hold my hand when I go?
Will you hold my hand when I go?

I drove up in my bone camarrow thinking only about you.

I know I say this at around this time every year, but I'm determined to go to Canada and come back as a fresh person, a revamped, revitalized version of Kc who's better than ever. Maybe I say this every year because I, like everyone else feel too clouded once in a while. I feel like between all of those who are negatively vying for my attention and the fact that I have a tendency to bitch a lot, I get lost sometimes. If it's not a boy, it's always something or other. Don't get me wrong, I'm as happy as can be and have figured myself out more in this past year than I have in a long time. But, it will still be nice to get away from all of my technological vices. I want to be new, fresh, smart, tanned, clean, loved, happy, carefree, rich, musically wealthy and well-dressed.

Secret #25

I still think you lie to me about where you are and what you're doing...

In All Honesty,

it doesn't bother me the least bit that this summer is different. No, I'm not saying last summer was shit. I learned a lot that summer! What sex felt like, what being in love felt like, what tanning felt like, how Sweet Tomatoes tasted like. Most importantly, i learned how amazing and close me and my friends were. Yeah, I do miss them. Hanging out with them almost 7 days a week doing shit-all :) But this summer, i feel more productive and grown up! I'm doing something that I'm extremely passionate about. Something that doesn't bore me. Something that fuels my energy. Something that keeps me away from doing stupid shit. Something that I love. It's just really nice experiencing new things every summer. Yenno, knowing what I like and don't like. I know I'm about to experience moreee :)

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Hey parents, fuck off and shut up.
Hey you, stop making me feel like an idiot.
Hey Sheila, congrats on grouse grind. I love you.
Hey you, it's nice talking to you once in a while.

7/15/2010

Thoughts:

-I want a lip piercing soo fucking bad.
-I feel unimportant to you at times. Like, the love really isn't mutual. I'm hoping what I feel is wrong.
- I would kill to spend my summer in Canada. I forgot what it was like to use public transportation and how easy it was to meet up with people that way.
- I don't regret moving to California, but the friends I had there were different. A better kind of different. I feel like I make no plans here because friends here wouldn't do what I prefer to be fun.
- Gah! I am so sick and tired of hearing WOWOWEE on my television. It's very irritating hearing loud and obnoxious filipinos yelling at each other over a game and some "pesos"
-Fruits = love
- I need to go thrift store shopping
- Tomorrow is my day off. I'm really hoping everything goes as planned. I get pretty anal when shit goes wrong on my day off. So don't fuck up my day with friends. Thanks.



p.s These are my rants, these are my goals. Let's see if they stick until tomorrow.
I want to have a good day.

Blast from the Past

I'm craving newness. I miss having something to do everyday of the week, other than rehearsal -_- I miss being interesting. I miss when ALL of my best friends lived within 10 minutes of me. I miss Canada.
I just want things to be interesting and exciting again.

I Promise That I'll Actually Write Something The Next Time I Blog

Artist Of The Day

So Cow

A guy from Ireland who makes catchy songs that make me happy :) What more could i want?
LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN.

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its just been an emotional roller coaster. one where you cant decide if you want the ride to end or for it to last forever