When will these pointless blogs ever make sense?
p.s This caught my eye. Oxymoron! It's so beautiful
Monday, August 24, 2009
I Has Been Sooo Out Of It Lately. n___n
I'm thinking of dying my hair back to blonde after senior year for one reason. A haircolor is a reflection of a mood or a personality. Brown hair is doing a lovely job at complementing my quiet personality and mood. Maybe being a blonde kid again will help bring out the part of me that I like, the outgoing, crazy, flamboyant part of me that I've kept hidden for a while. I'm so bored today that I'm almost tired from it. I wish I had seasons of The OC on DVD, I could really go for a marathon right about now, or even someone to come over and watch movies with me. On a lighter note, going shopping was super fun and I got hella shit. It feels sorta good when you spend $250.00 on clothing. Sweet. All I need now are a new pair of kicks and sick shadesss. Oh, and school supplies. hahahaha, I almost forgot about that. I have a feeling that the next few months will go by super fast but super stressful at the same time. September always flies by. I can't believe it will be a year in a few weeks since I first moved here. Time just fucking flies.
When will these pointless blogs ever make sense?
p.s This caught my eye. Oxymoron! It's so beautiful
When will these pointless blogs ever make sense?
p.s This caught my eye. Oxymoron! It's so beautiful
In All Honesty,
I've been sadder in the past few days than I have been since I was a little kid. Gah, I need a miracle or something. I'm bored. I just want to be happy. I just want excitement.
I'm In Such An Emotional State, Gtfo.
Thoughts:
- I was reading the texts between me and you and I can't help but wonder, what the fuck happened? We were so close and you helped me with almost everything I've been through this past year. I miss you a lot and I hope you come around.
- I always bitch about school starting, but in truth, I'm excited to go back to school (sort of) so that I can focus on something whole-heartedly that is productive.
- Part of me can't wait for fall. What's more beautiful than boots, scarves, layers, crisp air and a rainbow of dead leaves on the pavement? Nothing, that's what.
- My visit in Canada was too short. I miss my Grandma and I would do anything to go back because it hurts to know that she cries when I'm away. And to my friends, you guys will always be the originals. hahaha, don't forget that. Drinks when i get back, k?
- My boyfriend's hot. Just saying. It's amazing how the butterflies in my stomach are still there just fluttering around for you.
- I miss long talks at random hours of the night with the boys and Jess filled with humor, depth, and compliments.
- My nails need to be done badly. But what's the point? I always fuck them up anyway.
- I was reading the texts between me and you and I can't help but wonder, what the fuck happened? We were so close and you helped me with almost everything I've been through this past year. I miss you a lot and I hope you come around.
- I always bitch about school starting, but in truth, I'm excited to go back to school (sort of) so that I can focus on something whole-heartedly that is productive.
- Part of me can't wait for fall. What's more beautiful than boots, scarves, layers, crisp air and a rainbow of dead leaves on the pavement? Nothing, that's what.
- My visit in Canada was too short. I miss my Grandma and I would do anything to go back because it hurts to know that she cries when I'm away. And to my friends, you guys will always be the originals. hahaha, don't forget that. Drinks when i get back, k?
- My boyfriend's hot. Just saying. It's amazing how the butterflies in my stomach are still there just fluttering around for you.
- I miss long talks at random hours of the night with the boys and Jess filled with humor, depth, and compliments.
- My nails need to be done badly. But what's the point? I always fuck them up anyway.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
<3
I know not where I'm going,
for the ocean will decide.
It's not the destination,
it's the glory of the ride.
for the ocean will decide.
It's not the destination,
it's the glory of the ride.
Lame-O
CONFESSION 101
1. Are you in love? oui.
2. Ever kissed anyone with the name starting with a B? uhhh, yes. If the last name counts.
3. Are you watching TV? nope.
4. If you were given a drug test right now would you pass? yess.
5. Do you know anyone in jail/prison? Nope.
6. Do you like the color green? Love it.
7. Who were the last 3 people to send you a message? Emily, Sheila, Dominic
8. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs? nawww.
9. Do you have a crush? Yes.
10. Last restaurant you went to? Ricky's. Good ass mo fucking steak and pasta.
11. Last message you received? "hoy me heartee. where are you?" from Sheilaaa
12. What did you do yesterday? Drive to Canadaa and paaartyyy
13. What's the first thing you would do with five million dollars? Give some to charity.
14. How many hours did you sleep the night before last? 4.
15. Who was the last person that you felt was stalking you? Some weird guy at the hotel i'm staying at.
16. Have you ever been on your school's track team? 4th grade, BIIIITTTCCHH.
17. Do you have any pets? Yuki.
18. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you go? Yesss.
19. Do you swear at your parents? Not AT them, just...with them.
20. Is your phone right beside you? oui!
21. Have you cried today? non!
22. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? hmmm, maybe!
23. What is the color of your bedsheets? Red.
24. Have you ever crawled through a window? Oui.
25. Are you photogenic? Sometimes.
26. What do you spend most of your money on? Food.
27. What was the last thing you did? Before this, read Breaking Dawn.
28. Do you have a tattoo? Where words fail, music speaks.
29. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends? Some.
30. Ever told someone you love them and didn't mean it? Yeeees.
32. Are your parents married/divorced/separated? marrrried.
33. What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment? it's whatever i guess. I'm just not into that.
34. What objects are around you right now? Dog, cell, lamp, water, phone, sunglasses, keys.
35. What's on the walls of your room? Nooothing.
36. Are you genuinely happy? I guess.
37. Do you have trust issues? Yes, i do.
38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow? Seeing my sisterrr. Eating breakfast at the hotel, HAHAHAH.
39. What are you not looking forward to tomorrow? 4 hours in the car without an ipod.
40. Where's the last place you went? Ricky's
41. What's your favorite thing to do? That's a tough one. Sing, cuddle, read, EAT, sleep.
42. What do you miss right now? Boyfriend.
43. Lyrics stuck in your head? "but youu're so hypnotizing, you've got me laughing while i sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep"
44. What are you doing this weekend? kelownaaa
45. Two emotions you're having now? tired, loved.
FRIEND CONFESSIONS
1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends? hell naw.
2. Have you known any of your friends your whole life? No, but it seems like it.
3. Are any of your friends taller than you? All of them.
4. Have you ever been ditched by a friend? Hell yes. It sucks, asshole.
5. Do you have your friend's phone number's memorized? oui.
6. Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number? Yupp.
7. Have you been to most of your friends' houses? Hmmm, i think so.
HABIT CONFESSIONS
1. Do you play with things when nervous? Yupp.
2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives? No.
3. Do you sleep with the door open or closed? Closed.
4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand? Duct tape in use.
5. What is your worst habit? Pick at my nails.
8. Do you love most of your friends? Of course.
PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
1. Do you think abortions are horrible? ugghh, yes.
2. Are you against or think gay marriage is bad? Not at all.
3. Needles aren't so horrible? They aiiight.
4. You have plenty of secrets? Yes.
HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS
1. Have you ever fallen UP the stairs? hahahahahahahah, gtfo.
2. Have you ever had a nail fall off? eughhh, the thought. Nope.
3. Have you ever slapped someone across the face? Yes.
4. Have you ever killed anyone? Pierre =[ my pet ant.
5. Worn the same clothes for a week straight? naaw.
OTHER CONFESSIONS
1. Do you enjoy drama? A little, but i do not enjoy excessive drama.
2. Have you ever gotten in a fist fight? hahahahahaha, no.
3. Who would you like to hit right now? Miley Cyrus. But that's like all the time.
4. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? Probably.
1. Are you in love? oui.
2. Ever kissed anyone with the name starting with a B? uhhh, yes. If the last name counts.
3. Are you watching TV? nope.
4. If you were given a drug test right now would you pass? yess.
5. Do you know anyone in jail/prison? Nope.
6. Do you like the color green? Love it.
7. Who were the last 3 people to send you a message? Emily, Sheila, Dominic
8. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs? nawww.
9. Do you have a crush? Yes.
10. Last restaurant you went to? Ricky's. Good ass mo fucking steak and pasta.
11. Last message you received? "hoy me heartee. where are you?" from Sheilaaa
12. What did you do yesterday? Drive to Canadaa and paaartyyy
13. What's the first thing you would do with five million dollars? Give some to charity.
14. How many hours did you sleep the night before last? 4.
15. Who was the last person that you felt was stalking you? Some weird guy at the hotel i'm staying at.
16. Have you ever been on your school's track team? 4th grade, BIIIITTTCCHH.
17. Do you have any pets? Yuki.
18. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you go? Yesss.
19. Do you swear at your parents? Not AT them, just...with them.
20. Is your phone right beside you? oui!
21. Have you cried today? non!
22. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? hmmm, maybe!
23. What is the color of your bedsheets? Red.
24. Have you ever crawled through a window? Oui.
25. Are you photogenic? Sometimes.
26. What do you spend most of your money on? Food.
27. What was the last thing you did? Before this, read Breaking Dawn.
28. Do you have a tattoo? Where words fail, music speaks.
29. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends? Some.
30. Ever told someone you love them and didn't mean it? Yeeees.
32. Are your parents married/divorced/separated? marrrried.
33. What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment? it's whatever i guess. I'm just not into that.
34. What objects are around you right now? Dog, cell, lamp, water, phone, sunglasses, keys.
35. What's on the walls of your room? Nooothing.
36. Are you genuinely happy? I guess.
37. Do you have trust issues? Yes, i do.
38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow? Seeing my sisterrr. Eating breakfast at the hotel, HAHAHAH.
39. What are you not looking forward to tomorrow? 4 hours in the car without an ipod.
40. Where's the last place you went? Ricky's
41. What's your favorite thing to do? That's a tough one. Sing, cuddle, read, EAT, sleep.
42. What do you miss right now? Boyfriend.
43. Lyrics stuck in your head? "but youu're so hypnotizing, you've got me laughing while i sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep"
44. What are you doing this weekend? kelownaaa
45. Two emotions you're having now? tired, loved.
FRIEND CONFESSIONS
1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends? hell naw.
2. Have you known any of your friends your whole life? No, but it seems like it.
3. Are any of your friends taller than you? All of them.
4. Have you ever been ditched by a friend? Hell yes. It sucks, asshole.
5. Do you have your friend's phone number's memorized? oui.
6. Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number? Yupp.
7. Have you been to most of your friends' houses? Hmmm, i think so.
HABIT CONFESSIONS
1. Do you play with things when nervous? Yupp.
2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives? No.
3. Do you sleep with the door open or closed? Closed.
4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand? Duct tape in use.
5. What is your worst habit? Pick at my nails.
8. Do you love most of your friends? Of course.
PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
1. Do you think abortions are horrible? ugghh, yes.
2. Are you against or think gay marriage is bad? Not at all.
3. Needles aren't so horrible? They aiiight.
4. You have plenty of secrets? Yes.
HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS
1. Have you ever fallen UP the stairs? hahahahahahahah, gtfo.
2. Have you ever had a nail fall off? eughhh, the thought. Nope.
3. Have you ever slapped someone across the face? Yes.
4. Have you ever killed anyone? Pierre =[ my pet ant.
5. Worn the same clothes for a week straight? naaw.
OTHER CONFESSIONS
1. Do you enjoy drama? A little, but i do not enjoy excessive drama.
2. Have you ever gotten in a fist fight? hahahahahaha, no.
3. Who would you like to hit right now? Miley Cyrus. But that's like all the time.
4. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? Probably.
**
Hey jude, dont make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.
Hey jude, dont be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.
Hey jude, dont be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Nutshell
I enjoy new steeze, new shoes, new make-up, and nice nails. I do not enjoy complication and confessions, although they do add a bit of craved drama in my life. I miss my dog. I don't like sleeping alone. I like affection. I like how the ends of my hair are super fried, although I miss blonde hair. I like folding laundry. I wish people would tell me what I wanted to hear, but at the same time I like honesty. I wish my phone rang. I enjoy the comfort of talking to old friends who I've known for years and years who know the ins and outs of me. It feels like there isn't a lot to really look forward to now that school is coming up. I mean, I'm sure there are things that I could look forward to, but getting my hopes up for things does me no good. It seems that every time I get smacked down, it takes a bit less time to get up. But that scares me, because one day I'll just stop caring. I'm stuck in this indifferent, monotone-like mood. Oh wait, it's because I have a stiff neck. The only thing I'm severely looking forward to is seeing my best friend's pretty little face next week. I'd really just like to make a pot of tea and sit outside and sip as much caffeine as I can. Once September comes, I won't have time to think about any of this. It'll be an 'all or nothing' thing. Everything will be okay in the end, and if it's not okay, I guess it's not the end.
p.s. twinkle twinkle little staaarrrrrr. >=]
p.s. twinkle twinkle little staaarrrrrr. >=]
Sunday, August 9, 2009
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, ouch. It hurts to laugh
(519): and then she said I drew a line on her forehead with my cum and whispered "Simba"
Secret #16
When i was younger, I used to think sharks could swim out of drains and eat people. n____n
Thursday, August 6, 2009
ATTENTION!
I will be M.I.A for a while due to the fact that I will be starting fresh to be a better person, taking on life's adventures, and working my ass off....
AAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH okay, i lied. My computer's busted and it'll remain that way until i tell my father about this unfortunate situation. My computer holds everything and it's a bit of a bummer that it won't turn on. -_____- I fucked up, so what? stfu. I've been feeling like a failure this past week soo this isn't all that new to me. Hmm, at least this will force me to start reading again (including my drivers ed booklet thingy) and working on SATs and all that other grown up stuff. This is also a chance for me to vacuum the apartment. greeeeeaatt. So, basically, i'm in an emo stage when i know i could be super happy buuuuttt i don't feel like it because I SUCK. Let me dread. I'll be back on track in a couple of days.
xoxo,
Kcdelacruzz
AAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH okay, i lied. My computer's busted and it'll remain that way until i tell my father about this unfortunate situation. My computer holds everything and it's a bit of a bummer that it won't turn on. -_____- I fucked up, so what? stfu. I've been feeling like a failure this past week soo this isn't all that new to me. Hmm, at least this will force me to start reading again (including my drivers ed booklet thingy) and working on SATs and all that other grown up stuff. This is also a chance for me to vacuum the apartment. greeeeeaatt. So, basically, i'm in an emo stage when i know i could be super happy buuuuttt i don't feel like it because I SUCK. Let me dread. I'll be back on track in a couple of days.
xoxo,
Kcdelacruzz
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