Silly boy.

Thoughts:

- I'm letting myself down easy before you do.
- I apologize in advance to my friends for acting stubborn.
- Canada in 2 days. 'Nuff said.
- When I get there, i will do anything possible to forget everything that's happened.
- Rook piercing? I think so.
- I should be studying for my Eng and Math final but i'm so lost in my other thoughts.
- Shit, I sound so depressed.
- Happy thoughts kc
- Let's put a smile on that face :)
- gah, i just want it to be Wednesday.
- You're always there for me and also super cute. So, why did I choose to go the other direction? I'm so blind.

BREAK TIME.

01. Eyeliner or Mascara?
Mascara.

02. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Bourke?
LV.

03. American Eagle or Hollister?
Hollister

04. Pumps or flats?
Flats.

05. Skirts or pants?
Pants.

06. Socks or leggings?
Socks.

07. Hoodies or jackets?
Hoodies.

08. Heels or sneakers?
Sneakers.

09. Straight or curly hair?
Both.

10. Hoop or dangling earrings?
Studs.

11. Do you think your pretty, honestly?
Just cute.

12.Boots or Flip Flops?
Both.

13. White or black?
Grey.

14. Victoria’s Secret or Bath and Body Works?
Victoria's Secret.

15. Smoothies or Lattes?
Omg, fuck.. both!

16. Diet or regular sodas?
I don't like soda.

17. Water or daiquiris?
Water.

18. Pearls or diamonds?
Both.

19. Lemonade or iced tea?
Lemonade.

20. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?
MK.

21. Will you get drunk when you celebrate your birthday of this question number?
Heeeeelll yes.

22. iPod or cell phone?
iPhone.

23. Friends or family?
Both!

24. Lip gloss or lip stick?
Chapstick.

25. Manicure or pedicures?
None. I fuckem up all the time.

26. Would you rather shop with one best friend or go bowling with lots of friends?
Bowling.

27. Tank tops or beaters?
Tank Top.

28. Tiffany’s or Chanel?
Chanel.

29. Love or Peace?
Both.

30. Sunglasses or purses?
Both.

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IN A GUY...(OR A GIRL)!!!!

Funny or Serious?
Both.

Romantic or Daredevil?
Both.

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
A little of both, I don't know.

Long Hair or Short Hair?
Both.

Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
I don't care.

Basketball Player or Football Player?
Both.

Smoker or Non-smoker?
Both.

Drunk or Sober?
Sober.

Druggie or Clean?
Clean.

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
Any form of valid transportation is acceptable.

Player or Loyal?
Deinitely loyal.

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Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
Yup.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Laugh at him.

If you ever want to live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine, would you do it?
No.

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
No, I'd be a little bitch and start crying until i die. Which is probably the opposite of what I should really do.

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friend?
It's been a long ass fucking time.

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
Yeah.

On average what do you think you cry about the most?
My own worries.

Who was the last guy you talked to?
Charles.

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
Yes and no.

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
Yes.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I hope so.

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Guy and Bryana.

What friend do you tell things to the most?
Marcus, but i haven't had a decent conversation with him in a long time. Partially my fault.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Charles and Taylor.

Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
Bushes, probably.

Are you going anywhere next summer?
Canada.

Are you waiting for anyone's call or text right now?
Yupp.

Are you shy?
Yes

Are you talkative?
Yes.

Do you secretly like someone?
It's not a secret.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
No.

How is life going for you right now?
Shiteous.

Do you trust people easily?
Yupp.

Do you give out second chances easily?
Yes.

Do you smile a lot?
I do.

One thing you're looking forward to?
Next weekend, the summer, canada.

How do you feel about change?
It depends on the type of change.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yessir.

Last time you got a text message and smiled?
Saturday.

Are you happy?
I wish i were happier.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
No.

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
It depends on which people.

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
If I had my cellphone, ipod, a GPS Navigator, some water and a knife.

Mmm, leftover pizza!

Thoughts:

- A week left of school. 'Nuff said.
- Beach! Beach! Beach! Soon, please.
- I'm thinking of just dying my hair back to my natural color.
- I have to chew with the roof of my mouth and my tongue because I just got my braces tightened. hahahahah
- I need to do my laundry!
- I'm falling harder and harder for you. Is that bad? I just like how you're one of the very few guys who doesn't feed me bullshit.
- I need to be more gosh darn patient. Having lack of patience is what causes me to stress out!
- There are times when I wish i could just turn off my shyness. hahahahahah.
- Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? Definitely
- Someone take me to Ihop or Cheesecake Factory. Please.
- This pizza is not satisfying my taste buds.
- I'm going to finish cleaning my room.


p.s Look, my dog's asleep. Fatty.

Just wanna be your girl.

Hello World.
Woke up about half an hour ago =] Yesterday was a roller coaster of emotions. At the end of the day i guess you could say i was realllyy happy. I went to Great America with a bunch of kids from my school and that was cool. I got to perform! i'm not gonna lie, i did pretty amazing. I'm probably gonna post the performance up on youtube so watch out for that. After that, i went on a lot of rides, ate a lot of food, and got really wet ;) ...FROM RAPIDS, SILLY! Yeah it was nasty, i thought i smelt really bad from the water after but i apparently didn't. There are some things i can't exactly include in the blog because theyre hellla personal and it fucked me up bad :( but i learned something from it and it definitely helped me realized what..or who i really wanted. My dilemma is now resolved. =] So, aaannyway. The boys and jesselin decided that they wanted to go to my house the same night so i had to clean my room. I tried my best but i only had a half an hour to do it. It's funny how i saw them the day before but i already missed them so much. You have no idea how much respect and love i have for the fambam =] We did the usual, talk, watch a movie, eat, go out on an adventure (even though i was actually inside trying to sleep). They ended up leaving my house around 2:30am. Fell asleep around 3:00 and YEAH =] Sorry i couldn't explain everything but they're secrets. Shhhhhh! For some reason, after everything that happened, i feel hella confident but still kinda nervous and shy. Does that make any sense? Probably not, but WHATEVER. I'm gonna go eat the left over pizza from last night. Byeee.

p.s i woke up very happily today. Thanks. hahah

Secret #13

I'm a grammar freak.
Short abbreviations of words are cool, but if you can't spell at all, gtfo.

Bonjour!

From now on your going to be asked unique questions okay? I've done too many surveys, so i doubt they're going to be unique. but OKAY, BRING IT!

Have you thought about an ex today?Actually, yeah.

Is your room ever clean? Sometimes. I love cleaning it.

When was the last time you said you were fine and really weren't? Last week.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?Oh definitely.

Do you laugh a lot?I laugh too much for my own good.

Who did you spend your summer with last year? Friends.

Do you have an older brother?Yupp!

Do you believe in karma? What goes around comes around.

What were you doing at 7am this morning?Sleeping, for sure.

What mood are you in right now? Happy.

How is life going for you right now? There are some things i wish were better but i can't complain. Life is awesome.

What's the weather been like today? Hot and Sunny.

Where did your last hug take place? School.

How many kids do you want to have? My dream is to have 8 children. But in reality, i'll probably only have 2 or 3.

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?Definitely.

Who was the last person to make you laugh? My cousin.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Today at lunch.

Who is the first person you would go to if you had a problem? It would be both at the same time Sheila and Jesselin.

Do you have any plans for this week? Yes.

Are you shy?At first, yeah. You really gotta get me out of my shell.

Are you close with your siblings? We can be. I wish we were closer though.

How is your heart now?Medically: It's beating, and I haven't had any heart attacks, so it's good I think.Figuratively: It's alright.

How did you feel when you woke up today?Lazy.

Does anyone have feelings for you? I'm hoping so.

Think of the last person you told I love you" to, did you mean it? Yes. I'm not IN love with him but i do really love him as a friend.

Do you think your neighbor is hot? I don't know my neighbor.

Are you a bad influence?Definitely not.

Does your best friend have a Myspace? Yes.

Do you and your friends have code words for things?Probably, they never stick though.

What did you realize today? How people flirt with me constantly that i don't know whats real or not anymore.

Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?Yup.

Would you ever live with anyone on your Top Friends? Duh, we already planned it.

Last incoming call?Ralph

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?Probably.

Honestly what's on your mind? a certain male.

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?Yes!

When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard ? Sometime this weekend.

Did someone screw you over lately? Naw.

Do people ever mistake you for being a different race? Yes.

Are looks everything?Nope. Just 'cause you're hot, doesn't mean I'll like you.

Last person you were in a car with? Cousin.

Describe your love life. Empty. HAHAHAH *sigh* =[

When you meet someone special, do you fall fast?I do. But that's only because I'm really picky to begin with. If I actually like you, I REALLY like you.

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? I got to see 2 of my favorite cuties.

Where was your default picture taken? Bathroom. I know, what a poser. now, gtfo.

Are you a romantic?I definitely am.

Who was the last person you shared a bed with? My sister.

Do you talk to yourself?I'm pretty sure everyone does.

Where is the person you care about the most? I care for hella people. And they live all around the world.

What grade is the last person you kissed in? My grade :]

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?Sober. This kid is too cute, i couldn't resist.

What about the one before?Sober.

What’s on TV? I don't know.

Have you ever met someone who is incredible? Yes.
Are you a dog or cat person?Dog!

Did you have a dream last night?Yes, some fucker was chasing me and trying to lock me in their basement.

Which of your friends do you argue with the most? Sheila. I wanna kill the bitch sometimes. JUST KIDDING.

Do you think your life story would make a great movie? Sure, if you're into a girl who just sings, daydreams about being famous, eats food every 2 hours,sleeps, read books, go on the computer, complains about school and boys all day everyday :) That's all youre going to see on the big screen.

Do you find it romantic when a guy/girl whispers in your ear?Yeah, whispering is cute.

You just drank 15 shots, what would you be doing?Lying in a pool of my own vomit.

Do you hate the last person you kissed?No! Quite the opposite! la-la-loveeee him.

Will your next kiss be a mistake? I don't know. We'll see.

Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex? Yupp.

Do you think you've changed over the past year?More than ever. In a good way though.

Have you ever been in a long distance relationship? That was a fail.

Who was the last boy you talked to? Charles. Too cute for words.

Do you ever think "what if" about anything? All the time.

Does any part of your body hurt right now? My ankle and my side.

How many people do you not get along with?There are a few.

Did you cry at all this week?Yeah.

Why did you last cry? Because of this piercing pain on my side that was reaching to my spine.

When will your next kiss take place? Part of me thinks sometime after school tmrw or friday. But like i said, we shall see.

Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again? Actually, yeah. Douchebag.

Who was the last person you took a picture with? Zee!

Who is your favorite person to talk to when your down? Mom, Sheila, Jesselin, Guy, Tim, Ralph, Adrian.

Couldn't Agree More.

"Let me tell you what it's really about. High School Musical is about this group of boys who are all being molested by the basketball coach, who is Zac Efron's dad. It's about them struggling to cope with this molestation. And they have these little girlfriends, who are their beards. Oh, and somehow there's music involved. You have to get stoned and watch it."

- Megan Fox tells the new issue of Esquire


p.s hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.

You and I have no magic.

Thoughts:


- 25 more days of school!
- I miss my dog Yuki and cannot wait to see him.
- I just want that guy who i think is heellla fine to come up to me, gently put his hands on my face, and make out with me :)
- I can't wait for this friday. Skipping school to go to San Francisco with Jesselin and the guys. A great way to start the weekend with the people i loooveee.
- Summer is going to be so good.
- I've realized that you need me a lot more than i need you. You criticize other people way too much when you yourself are far from perfect.
- I may seem like a bitch who's always angry but thats only because I'm around you and I am tired of it.
- I have one more thing to do before I start fresh and I'm going to do it tomorrow.
- I've learned that patience is a great thing. I need a lot of it.

Changing this bitch UP!

I've very much decided that I will also be including in this blog:
- My thoughts
- Secrets
- In all honesty,
- **


oh, and while you're here! Check my new youtube video out!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaeAM-VU9Wg


Please&ThankYou <3

My Friday Night Kick It

Hey, what's good?
So yesterday night/this morning was our usual Friday Night Kick It. It was Jesselin, Tim, Sean, Jeff, Paolo, Ralph, and ME. Frack, i haven't hung out with them in HELLA DAYS! So this was quite exciting for me. This is how it all went down.

1. Jesselin and Kc start baking/Boys come
2. The movie 'Jenifer'/Going downhill
3. Outside/Possum
4. Secrets/Scary stories
5. SLEEEP

SO, Jesselin and I decided to bake cookies and brownies for the boys :) It was quite successful. We also ordered pizza and called Tim to rent a scary movie and a comedic one. 20 Minutes later he calls and says he couldn't get one :( So we thought, HEY! let's get it ourselves. We go to the movie rental place and we see the scariest looking girl on a dvd cover that says 'Jenifer'. We look at each other and say DAAMMMMN! So we rent it, as well as the movie 'Accepted'. We get back home and we find the boys outside. YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW HAPPY I WAS TO SEE THEM .I missed them sooo much. It was hella cute cause each of them gave me the tightest hug. They're HUGE so i guess i can say i expected it. hahaha.

We go inside, open up the pizza box ( YUMMAY HONNAY!), and start 'Jenifer'. OOOOOH MY GOD! It was so disturbing, you don't even know :( Okay so imagine a blonde girl with HUGE round eyes that are all black and her mouth is fucked up, bloody, in need of braces, and dusty and full of nasty red cobweb looking things. It was so fracking disturbing. Thinking of it now makes me want to not move an inch. Funny thing was, we didn't know it was a horror/porno movie. AAAHAHAHAHAHAH. We didn't watch the whole movie but from what we watched we gathered that she's some creepy fucking blonde girl with a scary ass face who has a hot body and is horny and fucks this detective guy but kills him and his family after. OH, and she eats their family cat. Now tell me how fracked up that is. It was so disturbing and freaky we would not get off the couches. This is where me and Jesselin got extremly mad. The whole day, Ralph kept pushing to go to his house with his cousin that night and get drunk and stuff. It wasn't fair because i hadn't hung out with them in hella days and he still wanted to go. It was OUR NIGHT but he kept pushing it. So me and Jesselin texted Tim (who was right beside me HAHA) explaining why we were mad and he understood and got pissed at him too. So there was a bit of tension in the air. Ralph left anyways as well as Jeff :( Although, he only left because he had curfew. BOOOO!

So it was just me, Jess, Tim, Paolo, and Sean and we go outside to chill. Fricken guys scare the shit out of us when they say Jenifer's gonna jump out of the tree and eat us. It was hella funny because Paolo started jerking and for a filipino kid he was pretty good. All of a sudden i scream "AHHHHHHHHHHHHH , A POSSUM ". The possum ran under the car and me and Jesselin freaked out and i jumped on her back. Then somehow we scared ourselves by thinking that Jenifer might be under the car eating the possum already. After the thought, we went back inside.

So we go inside, settle down on the couches, and play never have i ever. After we failed playing that game we just said "FUCK IT, let's just tell secrets". So there we go for around an hour spilling our secrets, sharing our crazy moments, and laughing our asses off at how dumb we are. After sharing our secrets we then shared our scary true stories. BAD IDEA. I couldn't move from the couch.

It was around 2:30 am when the boys had to go home but we BEGGED them to take us into Jesselins room and tuck us in. HAHAHAH! We also made Sean get our cellphones and our twilight books that were in the family room. Tim put us under covers and they all hugged us and left. Did i mention that before we got into bed Jesselin took the holy water from her parents room and put it by her bedside HAHAHAHAHAH. That's how scared we were. So we read twilight, talked about our whole day and how fun it was, then fell asleep. The end.

So I didnt exactly explain everything detail by detail but i was close! All together, last night was THE SHIT and i cannot wait till next weekend. I love them boys + Jesselin.


p.s Isn't it funny how pineapples grow on the ground?